I Feel


I feel empty,

I feel lonely

I feel afraid.
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I feel full

I feel loved

i feel courage



I wish I could feel with someone

At one time in history, the greeks believed in muses. The definition of a muse is:

Greek Mythology. Any of the nine daughters of Mnemosyne and Zeus, each of whom presided over a different art or science.

The nine muses will be presented in this handy thiung I found.

Name Meaning of Name Domain Symbols

Calliope The Fair Voiced Epic Poetry Writing Tablet
Clio The Proclaimer History Scroll
Erato The Lovely Love Poetry Lyre
Euterpe The Giver of Pleasure Music Flute
Melpomene The Songstress Tragedy Tragic Mask
Polyhymnia She of Many Hymns Sacred Poetry Pensive Look
Terpsichore The Whirler Dancing Dancing with Lyre
Thalia The Flourishing Comedy Comic Mask
Urania The Heavenly Astronomy Celestial Globe

Now im sure that if the muses were real, their powers would be split in people. Like their funny and kinda good at music. I like to think that i can invite a muse to join me. For example, I really want to learn to play spanish guitar. for a few reasons i might add. 1) It is a difficult task and I need a challenge. 2) It is a cool thing to do at parties etc. 3) Chick Magnet, need I say more?
I have met people who just have ways with words. These people can write and write and never lose it. Me on the other hand can sometimes write about somethings. Sometimes I wish that I were better at somethings. I have decided that is is time to stop wshing and do something. So I will. Please, if you see an imperfection in something, do something about it.

With this I leave you: Love what you do. If you don't, do something you love.

~Colin

In many of Shakespeare's plays, the main character(s) have a tradgic flaw. Some times the flaw is one of love, or the sort. Love is such a hard topic and is the most confusing thing in life. When I see people, espescially people who think they know what they are getting them selves into, I just want to go up to them and say, do you think that you will be with her for more than a year?...Two?? I can just imaginge what they would say." uhhhh no?" Well why then are you "going out". By the way, what is going out when your in 7th, 8th, 9th grade? what are you going to do, ask her for a ride? walk to the reseraunt? i mean come on people! Some people say to trust experience. Yes, that is true. but thats the hard way. I am just sitting out and watching. I have made a vow not to get intrested in any one unitll my junior year, where I can drive and I go to prom, double score. I am doing this because of what one of my friends said to me when I was in 7th grade. (before my vow thing) I was "going out" with this one girl. and I dopn't know how many of you know what it's like to have a "girlfriend" at that age but people are realy big on gossip and making sure that everyone is having a hard time living peacefull. well anyway, trying not to be to humiliated, I wasnt to openly social with her..that is in public... and my friend said, "If you are going out with her why are you embarissed about it?" well that got me thinking. Now I am that much wiser. I prefer to watch and make friends (female) as I progress in my life. Life, being the bitch it is, is going to screw things up every once in a while. that is why I like the quote by Helen Keller:

"When one door closes, another opens; but so long do we look at the closed one, that we don not see the one that has opend before us."

for example, my friends got in a big ol fight and now they hate each other, well, I made a friend. Hey it's a plus. Anyway, I like to get my Bad-Ass meter up and think about what I will do with her before I do anything.

So as everything, think about it.

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~Colin

“People always say you should be yourself, like yourself is this definite thing, like a toaster, or something. Like you can know what it is, even. But every so often, I'll have like -- a moment, where being myself, and my life right where I am is, like, enough.” --"My So-Called Life

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Trouble is part of your life -- if you don't share it, you don't give the person who loves you a chance to love you enough..... Dinah Shore

"The Luckiest"

I don't get many things right the first time
In fact, I am told that a lot
Now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and falls
Brought me here

And where was I before the day
That I first saw your lovely face?
Now I see it everyday
And I know

That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest

What if I'd been born fifty years before you
In a house on a street where you lived?
Maybe I'd be outside as you passed on your bike
Would I know?

And in a white sea of eyes
I see one pair that I recognize
And I know

That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest

I love you more than I have ever found a way to say to you

Next door there's an old man who lived to his nineties
And one day passed away in his sleep
And his wife; she stayed for a couple of days
And passed away

I'm sorry, I know that's a strange way to tell you that I know we belong
That I know

That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest

Do some people think that they have presidence over other people?

well they do.


the thing is not the position they carry that increases respect, it's how they got there.

im just jotting down random subjects.


PLEASE

talk to me!
do that to other people. just talk to them and listen to what they have to say. sometimes they will have something important thing to say, and sometimes they are just bored.
OR
sometimes they have feelings or some kind (Good or bad) for the other person

secrets
secrets
secrets

"what secrets do we hold, that keep people guessing?"

What do we hold, and why. I hold secrets, for a bunch of reasons.
one being for fun
another is becuase i have honor and will hold my word
some people keep secrets becuase they are afraid of the consequences that would result.










im sad

my cat died

im listening to "Fred Jones Part 2"
-Ben Folds

Listening to it makes me feel pity for life.
then in the midst of the pity, I wonder why.

But who doesnt
Why are we here
Why do we do what we do
the only real explenation is = becuase we do
or = because I can

live life
help other people
make at least one part every day interesting


why

becuase we can


do it

One

We only have one of a lot of things.
One life
One Freshman Year
One Sophmore Year
One Junior Year
One Senior Year

One time when we are 7
One time when we are 70

People don't think about this or the fact that we can only do things once for the first time.
Please, anyone who reads this, Live life to the fullest.
Think of it like a test
A test to see if you can live life.

Don't miss out!

~Me
Salinecjr@aol.com

Day after day, alone on the hill,
The man with the foolish grin is keeping perfectly still.
But nobody wants to know him,
They can see that he's just a fool.
And he never gives an answer .....

But the fool on the hill,
Sees the sun going down.
And the eyes in his head,
See the world spinning around.

Well on his way, his head in a cloud,
The man of a thousand voices, talking perfectly loud.
But nobody ever hears him,
Or the sound he appears to make.
And he never seems to notice .....

But the fool on the hill,
Sees the sun going down.
And the eyes in his head,
See the world spinning around.

And nobody seems to like him,
They can tell what he wants to do.
And he never shows his feelings,

But the fool on the hill,
Sees the sun going down.
And the eyes in his head,
See the world spinning around.

-The Beatles-"The Fool on the Hill



"I am the Fool"

~Me

Trust

Trusting people is one of the hardest things to do, Ive noticed. This goes along with the privacy one. Why should we trust people? Why do we need to talk to people? I don't know. All I know is that there are some people we can trust and some we can't. Picking these (for me) comes sun concienceously. All I do is think, "has this person talked about someone behind thier back and truly ment it, or joked with out all knowing that they were?" It is hard telling a friend that i don't fully trust them, but if I don't trust them then I don't. Even if it is only one person that has really pissed them off, and the piissed off person rambles things about him/her, then they can't be trusted. For some day, for some reason, I could be that person. For what reason, i do not know, but it could happen. Why is it that people can hold grudges for even the littles things? I usually don't do that. I can only be mad untill I sleep (unless they REALLY mAKE ME MAD! then I hold it for two days) and then I forget about it. I don't understand people tonight. Please e-mail advice.

~Me

It's not so much that people don't listen. The problem lies in people caring when they listen. Everyone should have a person who them can talk to. If not, their thoughts are kept inside of themselves and their knowledge and wisdom is never revealed to the world. Micheal Fowling said that if you talk, it means that you are alive, if you don't... Anyway, I feel really primative and young when people hold back on me. I don't like it. If there is one thing that defines people from friend to good friend and person I can trust, is when they listen and understand me, and vice versa. Our world is full of lies, misstrust, and deception. A friend who listens is a rare thing. Hold close to you those who listen. If you just met them, get to know them. If you know them (or think you know them), get to know them better. If they are a friend, tell them and hold them dear to you. A good friend is rare in this world of ours. Be thankfull for the ones you have.

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Your whole life, you have experienced sadness, happiness, and anger (duh). You see everything from your perspective. You see events of joy and sadness. When you meet/get to know someone (like Emily), it seems like a big thing. All of these things, including your ideas, added up are just monumental! Imagine that everything you know is put into a room. The room must have been HUGE!!! Now think of how may people there are in the world. Everyone has the same amount of events in their life. All of the 6 billion people in the world have the same kind of thoughts. So before you think why someone says or thinks something, think about it for a minute, have you ever thought about that. What made you think that. Doesn't that make you feel small.

I've noticed that at about the 5th grade, groups of kids start making fun of other ones. Those people (the make funners) tend to group together. Then in the 6th grade the other people start to hang around each other. This starts creating the cliques. It seems that when you single out any of these people, they wouldn?t mind to be with a person from another one of the their groups. Soon enough though, they won't want to. These groups form when one of these people decides that it would be funny if they made a joke about someone else. Then the other kids catch on and do it too. Then it continues; such as the quote by someone says," None of us is as dumb as all of us." This is pretty self-explanatory. It says then people can do really stupid things (at any age) when in groups of any size. We do this because of our masks (check previous entry). These groups change some but usually last until 8th-9th grade, then nobody cares any more. I have noticed that grades 1-4 and grades 11 and up, are very similar; in perspectives of people that is. I have never cared for these groups, at any time in my life. Though many people do. They see these people as their friend, though most of the time they aren't. This manipulates all in it. So the lesson of today is: don't be stupid (and I know that that is hard for many)

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I had an assembly at my school the other day. The speaker was phenomenal. His name was Michael Fowling. He talked about many different topics. One of which was about the mask that people wear when they go places. The mask that hides their true feelings, attitude, personality, and sometimes emotions. I do feel bad that I wear masks to hide myself, but I also feel that it is better. I like to conserve my seriousness to when I need it. I am sure that if you think about it, you wear a mask also. These masks can spell glory or disaster, just depends on how you wear. I am constantly changing, modifying, and creating new masks. Just make sure that you know whom you are.

"Sometimes people carry to such perfection the mask they have assumed that in due course they actually become the person they seem.
W. Somerset Maugham (1874 - 1965), The Moon and Sixpence


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Pride.

Most people think of pride as the thing that makes them do stupid things in the face of danger. Some people also get pride and courage confused. Pride is the emotion that is us protecting our feelings. Courage on the other hand has lots of meanings. Courage could be doing right when everyone else is doing wrong, standing up to danger, and sticking up for other people. COURAGE IS NOT LOOKING FOR TROUBLE! Here is a quote I wrote myself (with a bit of help form Drizzt Do'urden): A person may walk alone, but never should he walk without friends. Also, people should know their surroundings and know where to find allies. People have too much pride when they think they don't need those things. The realization will hit them either when they figure it out or when they die by it. Yeah, I know that's kinda harsh....well it's really harsh, but it's true. Becoming so full of your self that pride is turned into foolishness (or what the person would call a mixture of intelligence and courage) is a HUGE mistake that many people take as a blessing. Well it's not. When someone thinks they have a lot of courage and pride, they go looking for trouble that could affect their pride. Thus destroying both. Just keep that in mind next time you want to pick a fight or do something stupid.

It's amazing how music can change our feelings instantly. It's also amazing how books can do the same. Books and music are very similar. They both tell stories and they both have they ability to change our mood.

To me, music is the most effective. Music (usually classical or John Williams type) has the power to make me see a lot of things in my minds eye. Plus it can change my mood if I listen to it enough. The thing that changes my mood is when there are some many different parts and things going on in the music, it just makes me feel so small and insignificant. There are only a few people that I have met that really appreciate music in that respective.

It's the same way with books, that is it can change the way I feel but books don't quite work the same way. For me, I get so into books that I completely forget what was bothering me (that is if it was something small or of reasonable size). I am totally into the fantasy genre. Those books take me into another world that give the reader perspective of another person, his troubles, and his solutions.
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That wasn't much of a "here take my advise", but just a little thing I thought of...check back soon ~