There is something about being human, that makes you want to succumb to all of your problems.
There's something about being mortal that makes you want to do everything quickly before we die.
There's something about being both that makes us need that little bit of reinsurance that is religion.

There is something about her that makes me forget about all of that and just love life how it is right now.




A little something a whipped up to stick in the fridge and save for later.

~Colin

Everything that a person does requires dedication. Anything. Big or small requires some extent of dedication. The difference is not on the task. It is how well suited someone is to that task. If one has done something before, It may take more or less dedication. It again depends on the task. It is the people who put alot of dedication into everything that they treasure that I envy, that I wish I could be like, that I wis they could reach out to me and give me just a scrap of thier apparently abundant knoledge and wisdom, for they have passed they final barrier. THey know exactly how much dedication it takes to put into things. They know exactly what to do and how to do it. They know how to teach the less fortunate how to do this, and they do. Very few of these "wise ones" exist. One might argue that none exist. Who can know. Only the person themselves would know, but since they know that there is always more knowledge, that they are not "wise ones". So I guess they don't exist, but that is of course more perception than reality. Then again, what is reality, but what we persieve it to be?




(by the way my quote of the day is: "What is reality, but what we, as induviduals, persieve with the help of our morals.")
Feel free to quote me, just give me credit.



~Colin

When I look for females, I look for:
Humor
The ability to deal with me and my moods
able to put me in bad ass mode
Can make me think
Laughs
Smiles

Please ladies, tell me what you look for in a guy.
salinecjr@aol.com

~Colin

There are so many stages people go through. For example, the crises stage. Luckily, my crises involved me alone. I am currently trying to leave a crises not my own, but one that is screwing up life. People always learn from these. People get stronger. Emotionally and mentally, I am the nerdy skiny guy. Yes I have knowledge, but not experience. Experience has, and will hurt. I am ready........................................Julie, You are so much stronger than me.

~Colin

Is there a pattern?
Yes

There is always a pattern.
Everyone knows the pattern, the have it inside of the, they are apart of it. They just haven't discovered it for them selves yet.
Fire has a pattern.

Fire.
The bringer of life.
The destroyer of life.
Fire is Anger,
Anger that leaps and licks on the outside,
Anger that burns in beautiful rage on the inside.
Fire is Love,
Love that embraces and consumes all that encompasses it,
Love that is an aurora, burning from the center out.
Fire is happiness,
Happiness that leaps to new heights at every moment,
Happiness that eventually burns low but never out.
Fire is everything and everyone.
Fire is the beginning and the end.

~Colin

"Even as he looked at the girl and his heart started to pound faster, his brain cautioned him, he had not had good experiances with love in previous times. Love can break your heart, it can make you feel so lost and so confused that you don't care about your own life at all."

Ispired by the book Abarat

That's what it does, thats why I don't. I need to get stronger...

i want to be a bad ass

Quote by me. Feel free to use any of my stuff as long as my name is on it. Thank You.






If you know someone's name, you know them. People differ the meaning of "know" but it is only one word. It means to know. There. Though, though there are different degrees of "know". I know my mother more than anyone else. I know my friend pretty well. I know myself to some extent. and I know other people to some extent. I want to know people like I know me. That way I can bring them that much closer to happiness. Now matter what it does to me. I want the world to be happy.

-Colin

Latly I have found myslef thinking about the human race. One side of me says...

Man kind is an imperfect thing,
Emotions are plauges that reek pain and suffering among us.
Man is blind and can not see beyond his own morales,
He looks at the world through dirty, unfocused glasses.
Man Looks at a problem and says "What kind of work do I have to do to get it done",
he looks at everything as a chore only worth doing if he benifits.

The other part of me says...

Man is an imperfect but repairable thing,
Emotions heal and bring life to man.
Man can learn everything in the world,
He can clean the glasses through which he looks through.
Man can look at a problem and say, "Oh! That seems like I challenge!",
Man can benifit from the word and himself.

Then the other part says...

Yeah but I am right, you are just trying to be optimistic,
Too bad it doesn't work on the truth!

and the Optimistic part says...

You are just being arrogant

and the Arrogant part says...

Yes I am, but at least I am arrogant about the truth!