So sometimes we hide from things, people....ourselves without knowing it. We get lost. If we are lucky, we notice this and break free and become ourselves again, and it is refreshing. The problem comes when we choose to hide, because if we hide for too long and too deep, we won't be able to find our way out. So...sing like an angel, dance like a raver, and show compassion like buddhist. Because only after we find ourselves can we decide what to do with ourselves.
If it doesn't make sense in the context you think I wrote it in, then use it in your own. Because that has no context that I am ever going to tell you... at leas not in the next couple years you nosey bavarian pig. sorry. I didn't mean it : ) (well not the bavarian part).
You are beautiful
For all you smart asses that want to ruin my moment, I'm not saying if someone points a gun in your head to hug him. Probably not the best idea. But say you get in an accident or somebody bumps into you or someone jumps in front of you in a que. Why do we have to get pissed off? Why cant we simply be ok with the fact that they might be having a bad day. Isn't that what you would want them to do? and maybe you cant do that all the time and that goes for everyone. But why don't we try to give the benefit of the doubt to the person who just lost a family member, or just got diagnosed with cancer, maybe once in a while. You you know an equal amount of what the parent that lets his kids run about on the subway has gone through as you do knowing what is in my pocket.
So for the sake of a little peace once in a while (holy crap I sound like a hippie) show some love and compassion. Regardless of their views, sometimes the only thing anybody needs is a little love.
"To everyone else, he would always be the boy in the top window."
The problem appears when we attempt to view another person perspective in its entirety, because it is impossible. To do so would mean living that person's whole lifeover; reliving their pain and sorrow, victory and triumph. We only ever know so little about a person unless they truly open up to you. I have not met a person like that yet that I am comfertable with reciprocating the curtosy. I am waiting. There are people that I am sure are willing and there are people that I would open up to in a second if only they went first. Maybe they are waiting too, but I have tried. It is hard to do and I have started before only to find the river flowing in the wrong direction. So I give up, I'll stay in the shallows and hope my tears will raise the water level.
But we try to understand anyway, and the ensuing frustration causes grief and anger. Many people can't get through this. People like me who have more empathy than should be necessary simply cry. We weep for other people and we bawl at others pain. I am afrad of other people's death far more than my own and I would take harm for so many other people. The hard part comes when I try and justify other's actions in my mind. I know now to simply stop trying because there is no true jutification that will mean anything to me. I just wish I could know.
This is part of my giving up on some things. "But Ill fight like hell, to hide that I've given up" I dont know what it is that makes me upset sometimes, but the best thing you can do is talk. Please talk, tell me stories and tell me about yourself because I dont know you. I dont know any of you. There is no way that I could ever see life from your perspective, but I can always try and see what happens
Love
I believe
I believe that a people are the most important things. This includes health in physical and mental senses, people's rights, and their relations.
I believe that staying healthy is an easy thing to do, and not doing so is only harmful and silly. Why would someone not want to be healthy? Why would someone choose pain, discomfort, and cancer over...well...not. To me it isn't even a contest. I also like to think that vanity has nothing to to with it, but that is not true. Vanity plays a part, but is not the main focus. Staying healthy, not wanting to get cancer or mess up the brain are reasons enough for me. Seriously, why would a person purposefully kill neurons or modify DNA? because it feels good? That is selfish, childish, and plain dumb. If you want to feel good there are several other ways to do so alone or with other people (and not all of them are sexual). In respect to the consequences, is temporary pleasure really worth a damaged brain and various forms of cancer? no.
I also believe that the right to do whatever you want is vitally imperative to people. I have no problem with you doing anything, unless it concerns other people. "Your rights end where your fist meets my nose." (Jefferson right?). So hurt yourself all you want, just keep it away from me. In related news, the president will be making a speech on the 5th supporting the anti-gay marriage amendment in the U.S. Constitution. The government is willing to create a constitutional amendment that simply discriminates against certain people. They have no right to do that. Currently, Marriage is defined in the major dictionaries as being referenced by the bible. We are basing the meaning of a word off of one person's interpretation of the Bible. Don't even get me started on my problems with the Bible. Do NOT try and argue the Bible's validity. It is a collection of stories, some of which may have had some historical events that happened, most of which more likely are simply fables encouraging good and condemning bad. It is a story book that was written 2000 years ago. So there. If you are literally interpreting the bible, I will literally interpret fantastic ideas like the sun revolves around the earth and the world is flat and Japan was created by some mud falling off of a stick. What? these are not true you say? prove it. Oh, you have science? then why doesn't it apply to the bible? don't believe me yet? Watch Penn and Teller's bullshit on the bible. You will have to rent the DVD as both Google and Youtube have removed it from their sites as far as I can tell. Conservative __________ (fill in the blank with the profanity of your choice) I hope you see the importance of rights. Do what you want, just don't hurt me or my friends, or my family.
I believe that by ourselves we are nothing, together we are everything. I need family and friends, and I care for them. Communication is key here. So tell people how you feel. and if the above hold true for your state, I will listen to you and try and help. I love you all. ALL OF YOU. I can help some more than others and I will do my best. Talk to me. Choose me. Lean on me. Because I will need somebody to lean on soon enough. Hug me, sit with me, cuddle, drink warm drinks, be cozy. Don't be dumb.
Everything in life is your choice. In all honesty, no choice can be made for you unless you let them. You may be placed in very inopportune situations, but it is all up to you and I know you can do it. I'm not really referring to anything there, but I know you can do it. Whatever it is you want to do.
I love you all
I've gone a Voltaire binge.
It is forbidden to kill; therefore all murderers are punished unless they kill in large numbers and to the sound of trumpets.
Every abuse ought to be reformed, unless the reform is more dangerous than the abuse itself.
Many are destined to reason wrongly; others, not to reason at all; and others, to persecute those who do reason.
Judge a man by his questions rather than his answers.
What is tolerance? -- it is the consequence of humanity. We are all formed of frailty and error; let us pardon reciprocally each other's folly -- that is the first law of nature.
I disagree with what you say, but I'll defend to the death your right to say it.
Our wretched species is so made that those who walk on the well-trodden path always throw stones at those who are showing a new road.
In the Spirit of Earth Day yesterday I too some pictures:
(there are alot and I dont feel like linking them so you can do that yourself
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Yay! have fun looking at them!
This has the potential to be very long and on several subjects. I will separate and label each subject as I see fit.
Government
It is an extremely scary thought to think of our government as from the video below. (My eye is twitching...it is very strange) Seriously though, it is obvious that it has the power. They can do whatever the hell they please and blame it on
Religion
I bring up Deism because I know someone would bring up Christianity at some point. (I would say something about Bush being waaaay to into God and bringing that into our politics and I would say it strayed from the founders of the US and they would say that they were Christian and I will say that they were Deist and that you are stupid and that you are talking about things that you have no idea about. I would then encourage them to continue reading and perhaps learn something on the way. In the words of Voltaire, "Let each of us boldly and honestly say: How little it is that I really know!"...that was mean wasn't it?
Firstly Here is the definition of Deism According to the Merriam-Webster Dictionary:
Deism
Pronunciation: 'dE-"i-z&m, 'dA-
Function: noun
Usage: often capitalized
: a movement or system of thought advocating natural religion, emphasizing morality, and in the 18th century denying the interference of the Creator with the laws of the universe
So in other words, Deism, in the classical belief, is a belief of a God that created the earth and no longer intervenes with its affairs through miracles or the like. There are several beliefs that branch out here. Some believe that he does not intervene because the best of worlds has already been made, therefore no intervening is necessary. Others believe that it is because he created Earth and no longer exists as a separate entity (God is one with the earth). Either way, God created the Earth and no longer does anything to it or its inhabitants. This is also called the clockmaker hypothesis.
Deists believe that God created the Earth and created Man with reason and logic. Man is empowered with reasonable thinking and strives to learn more about the world by obtaining knowledge through various fields of science.
Key founding fathers including Thomas Jefferson and Benjamin Franklin were both believers in Deism. (Please also note that the following presidents were Desit or had Deist affiliations/beliefs: George Washington, Thomas Jefferson, James Madison, James Monroe, John Tyler, and Abraham Lincoln. )Their beliefs appear in several documents including the Declaration of Independence. I believe that the terms used in this document are some of the most misinterpreted terms ever. The following terms are all words that Deists use to describe their God:
Creator
Divine Author
Divine Providence
Divine Watchmaker
Divine Essence
First Cause
Grand Architect of the Universe
Nature's God
Providence
The One that is All
The Eternal One
The Living Law (Essene)
The Living Director Principle in All Being
The Governing Being of the Universe
Supreme Being
Supreme Intelligence
*The ones that are bolded indicated their usage in the Declaration of Independence
Therefore, nobody can say that the founding fathers were Christian and that God should be in the government.
***God refers to the Deist and Judo-Christian deity, Man refers to all human beings***
Government
So we are led to believe that our government knows what they are doing. We trust them because they are knowledgeable. Well they must be! we think They have gone to a lot of school to do this! So we lull ourselves into believing that they do what is best for us. AHA! that is where we are wrong. There is a distinct difference between knowing a lot about the government and us, and doing what is best for us. But, because we are waaaaay to trusting of people who know more than we do in certain areas, we blindly say, "Ok do what you want with us! You know best."
This country seems like a bad case of parental abuse. The people in the nation are the child and the government is the parent. We trusted the parent to do what is best for us and they abuse us, therefore losing our trust. Unfortunately, because this is a dysfunctional family, we continue to go back to them because that is all we know. We keep going back and keep getting burned. There is nothing we can do
Oh wait...YES there is! ITS CALLED VOTING! We claim we have a democratic system, (I’m not even going to acknowledge the electoral college because I think it is silly). and we do, but it is defective. It is a democratic system that was born without legs. Everyone can vote, but only 61% of the population does. OOH! 61 percent that’s a lot of people you may think. Yeah it is. But think of how many people in the
88,720,240 !!!!!!!!! Let me write that in words so you can see it better EIGHTY EGHIT MILLION SEVEN HUNDRED TWENTY THOUSAND TWO HUNDRED FORTY PEOPLE
88.7 million people did not vote. Let’s make some comparisons here.
88.7 million people is...
The number of people who saw the best Super bowl ads
5 million more people than the population of
1.5 World War II casualties (total of everyone!)
36 Years worth of Deaths in the
355 I have a dream speeches
825 Sold Out
29,712 September 11, 2001 attacks ?
50,697 Saline High Schools
...and just for fun, If everybody stood shoulder to shoulder, they could rap around the earth one and a third times.
† based on 2005 U.S. Mortality rate as found on the CIA World Fact book
? (isn't it funny how I mention that?)
Hopefully that will encourage you to vote if you can. If you comment at all on current government affairs and don't, vote you are the most (please prepare yourself for a very alliterate use of the thesaurus) abhorrent, abominable, caitiff, corrupt, crooked, despicable, detestable, dirty, disgraceful, dishonorable, egregious, fetid, filthy, fraudulent, heinous, horrid, impure, inequitable, infamous, iniquitous, loathsome, malodorous, monstrous, nasty, nauseating, nefarious, noisome, notorious, offensive, putrid, rank, raunchy, repulsive, revolting, rotten, shady, shameful, squalid, stinking, sullied, tainted, unclean, underhanded, unfair, unjust, unscrupulous, vicious, vile, and wicked hypocrite that has ever come into existence. Period. No excuses.
Voting for our leaders does not fix problems; it eventually either makes problems or prevents them.
Now I know that someone will be an ass and say, "This is a free country, I don't have to vote if I don't want to." I agree. I can't not agree. Naive and Ignorant as it is, it is true. I whole heartedly believe in Liberalism (specifically, a kind of non-extremist libertarianism) (see below) therefore you are at liberty to do what you want as long as it does not infringe on the rights of others. Obviously, not voting does not infringe on anybodies rights. The only thing that happens by not voting is that I lose respect for you and you make our country a worse place. Sorry, did I say that out loud? So go ahead and don't vote asshole, but if anything happens in this government that you don't like you have no right to say anything. In fact I will personally hogtie you and tape your mouth shut if you do. With that said...
Revolution
"When the people fear their government, there is tyranny; when the government fears the people, there is liberty." - Thomas Jefferson
How true.
Desperate times call for desperate measures. Luckily, I don't think things are desperate yet.
I do believe that things could get out of control and we can't let that happen. Pretend with me here, just for an instant, that the government was trying to gain more control over us by fear and increased military power. What can we do. As a means of gun power, we still have the right to have guns (i suppose it is a good thing....?). Now the military has much more power, but we at least have a start. (I love the quote from V for Vendetta: "What usually happens when people without guns go up against people with guns?") Just for an instant we have no control. Just for an instant we are all being monitored. Just for an instant they have all the control and we have none.
Just for an instant, we need to get it back. Just for an instant we need to stand in front of a tank, we need to nonviolently protest the government, we need to sit in the front of the bus, we need to boycott what we don’t believe in. We have the numbers, they have the guns. They won't kill the entire country because there would be nobody left. So please, if you believe in something, stand up for it. A belief is something that you would do, it is not a thought. Because if you don't, who will?
Someone the other day asked what this would accomplish (in response to a certain situation involving a mass resignation from a certain business). Well, they are quitting because of mistreatment and poor quality jobs. They have the right to. Im sure they have already tried talking to them, and since it didn't work, they will leave. They are standing up for what they believe in, workers rights. I think that it is a great idea, if all other options have already been sought out. When workers are mistreated and under appreciated and it isn't something you love doing, then leave. Better yet, stay. Stay and truly reform what is happening. Leaving is abandonment, staying is percervereance and can be revolutionary. Dont quit, reform. Stop complainging and do something, file complaints, make a fuss, hold a strike, but dont give your job to them, make them take it from you while you are making your point. That is what you should do...in my opinion of coursePolitical Views
A year ago, I did not have as firm of a stance in what I believe. Until some things happened and now I will fight for everything I believe in. I used to be moderate, until I learned that what I believed was not moderate. I suppose that I looked at the Liberal and Conservative (United States Politics) extremists and thought I am not either of those, so I am moderate. As I progressed through life, however, I realized that, through a little research of ideology I realized that everything that I saw in the media, heard in the halls or on the street was of extremists because nobody wants to talk or hear about boring stuff. At least boring in their eyes. They want excitement!! They want crazy politicians ripping each other heads off! They want Rush Limbaugh. (Just kidding nobody likes him). And so I found that my views do fit in a category, more or less. Plus I can modify the name of the category as much as I see fit to hold true to my views!
^.^ More to come!! (maybe)
Is the Government really on our Side?
...and you thought we were safe!
Bottled and served with the table set in my finest suit
Like a perfect gentlemen
I'll be the fire escape that's bolted to the ancient brick
Where you will sit and contemplate your day
I'll be the waterwings that save you if you start drowning
In an open tab when your judgement's on the brink
I'll be the phonograph that plays your favorite
Albums back as your lying there drifting off to sleep...
I'll be the platform shoes and undo what heredity's done to you...
You won't have to strain to look into my eyes
I'll be your winter coat buttoned and zippedstraight to the throat
With the collar up so you won't catch a cold
I want to take you far from the cynics in this town
And kiss you on the mouth
We'll cut out bodies free from the tethers of this scene,
Start a brand new colony
Where everything will change,
We'll give ourselves new names (identities erased)
The sun will heat the grounds
Under our bare feet in this brand new colony
Everything will change
-The Postal Service
Cognitive Dissonance, mental inbalance, conflicting thoughts
A rose by any other name would smell as sweet. The books, people, movies, art, music, and photgraphy, all can inspire a change of mind. A change of belief, attitude and way of life. Those are the best. The things that make you think about your life to take a step back and realize that everything that is so important to you now will not matter in a year. That you are still young and that there is still time. Carpe Diem! Grab the sweaty toothed madman and run into a field of daises, a field of individuals that view them selvs as unimportant. Take him and your blanket and run. Move on from the death of your wife, maybe it just takes time sitting in a chiar, an hour a week before you realize, "It isn't your fault"
These things are what bring us together, bring the starnagers in the halls, the aquaintences to strong friendship. All of you, those that I know but dont know, call me find me and allow me to invite you to my house where we may talk and understand the world. Those I do know, you are invited to come as well, it'll be a date.
(pop quiz, what movies did I make references to in the first paragraph)
Oh but I wish to be Purple
Equality is Both Impossible and Impractical...
Well, Impractical first:
If everyone were equal, if everyone looked, acted, smelled, tasted, worked, lived, loved, cried, ate, jumped, ran, swamwell; was good at all subjects in school, succesful in all aspects of life; and was identical in all aspects LIFE WOULD SUCK.
Nobody would exel at anything. Nobody would ever win or lose. All sports would end in ties and all classes would be equally boring or amazing.
With everything would be equally amazing! mediocre, or sucky.
Either everybody finds the cure for cancer! we are all equally almost there, or we all die from it.
and impossible because we would all be the same age, or body shape, or all equally good at hunting or something. There wouldn't be any caribou left. In anycase, we would all be so equal at what we did, when eventually there wasn't enough the universe would collapse and we would ll be pulled apart like a big pig roast.
Well then it was fitting for you to take care how you should be like the rest of men, just as the thread has no design to be anything superior to the other threads. But I wish to be purple, that small part which is bright, and makes all the rest appear graceful and beautiful. Why then do you tell me to make myself like the many? and if I do, how shall I still be purple?
-Discourses by Epictetus
The Future's Got me Worried such Awful Thoughts
Noboy knows what the future holds (except H.G. Wells mind you)., but it is something that occupies our minds much of the time. Full of what ifs and full of hope. Full of questions and possibilities and potentialities. We always do it, and everything that we think, every possibility that we create in our minds is false, except that one little one that acctually happens. It is pointless, but so is alot of the things we do.
None the less it happens and I'm not gonna stop it. infact, im going to do it. . . sort of. Becuase soon, I will be going where my life is made. The forgery in which the basis of my life is crafted. everything I have gone through has beought me where I am. And I have many personalities, as evryone does, but can obviously only use one at a time. this is my worry. That my senior silence will follow me next year.
Senior silence is my little quieting disorder. I feel like I talk less. I feel like I analyze more and talk less. I give only a very few attampts at conversation and let others do the rest. I feel like I alienate myself. Everyone else is out there thwoing their moeny away when I have to go to college and eat at the same time. I feel like I have compared myself too much.
Well.. now I really justf feel tired. Because I get all sad when I am tired, I dont like getting tired it isn't fun. I neeed to sleep.
Night
"Nothin gets Crossed Out"
Bright Eyes
The future has got me worried, such awful thoughts.
My head is a carousel of pictures.
The spinning never stops.
I just want someone to walk in front
and I'll follow the leader.
Like when I fell under the weight of a schoolboy crush.
Started carrying her books and doing lots of drugs. I almost forgot who I was,
but came to my senses.
Now I'm tryin' to be assertive.
I'm making plans.
Wanna rise to the occasion, yeah
meet all of their demands.
But all I do is just lay in bed
and hide under the covers.
I know I should be brave
but I'm just too afraid of all this change.
And it's too hard to focus through all this doubt.
I keep making these "To Do" lists but nothing gets crossed out.
Working on the record seems pointless now.
When the world ends, who's gonna hear it?
But Im tryin' and take some comfort in written words,
yeah Tim I heard your album and it's better than good.
When you get off tour I think we should hang and black out together.
Because I've been feeling sentimental for days gone by...
all those summers singing, drinking, laughing, wasting out time.
Remember all those songs and the way we smiled
in those basements made of music.
But now I've got to crawl, to get anywhere at all. I'm not as strong as I thought.
So when I'm lost in a crowd,
I hope that you'll pick me out.
Oh, how I long to be found.
The grass grew high. I laid down.
Now I wait for a hand to lift me up, help me stand.
I have been laying so low
Don't want to lay here no more.
Don't want to lay here no more.
Don't want to lay here no more.
Don't want to lay here no more.
But if everything that happens is supposed to be
and it is predetermined, can't change your destiny.
Then I guess I'll just keep moving, someday, maybe, I'll get to where I'm going.
The've done it!
It's done
They have created an equation to find the worst day of the year.
What psychologist really has such depressing patients that he would want to find that one day that ist just shit?
This guy
The model is: [W + (D-d)] x TQJennifer Carlile
M x NA
The equation is broken down into seven variables: (W) weather, (D) debt, (d) monthly salary, (T) time since Christmas, (Q) time since failed quit attempt, (M) low motivational levels and (NA) the need to take action.
Reporter
MSNBC (click to read the whole story)
The other day when I was walking into blockbuster, someone asked my why she never saw me on the stage. and that got me thinking again as to why we do what we do.
When we are young, infants, we do what we do because we do. We drink milk because we do. We eat what is fed to us because we do. and we grow because we do. It is animal instinct to live and the only thing that can change that is thousands of years of evolution in one direction or another. We do what we do to live.
In early childhood, we learn. We have survived so far, but it looks like we will have to adapt if we are to continue. We learn to do everything. We learn to communicate, we learn to effectively transport our selves, we learn to interact with others, we are sponges that absorb more than even the strongest quicker picker upper. We also learn fun. Fun is what our life becomes obsessed with as we journey farther into life. We love fun in all of its shapes and sizes. We love fun no matter the color or creed. We love fun even without regard to species. life is fun is life.
Later in childhood, what I like to refer to as the 'when I was young' ages, we learn falsehoods. We learn to lie, cheat, scam, and worst of all, we learn emotions. Learn isn't the right words, I just used it for repetition. Seriously, we learn to dilute and complicate our emotions. The barest of feelings we code in cliche words and macaroni hearts and the cute little drawings we hang on the fridge. We code them and give them to others to decipher hoping that they will somehow feel what you felt while you meticulously glue those glitter covered macaroni around your favorite family picture. why? because we want trust. We want the secure knowledge that everyone you know will be here tomorrow, just as they are today, and that you and you and you and I can go play with him and her and him and their dogs. and we play and dream. We dream of our future and of fun we can have when we grow up. Of walking on the moon and of discovering dinosaurs and of saving people from burning buildings. We dream of the world as it should be from our eyes. And never NEVER! do these dreams ever leave us, no matter how hard you try at any stage in your life can you rid yourself of the pure, angelic, untainted hope that gleam in your eyes. we dream of a good life. because life is good. Life is free, lovely, fun.
Then something happens. Whitecoats call it 'maturation'. The body grows and as a result so does our intelligence and wisdom. but that is not what we are worried about. No. we are on stage. We have hit Broadway and we are the stars of the show. ((unless that bitch who thinks she is all that comes over and steals my part that I have worked so hard to make, practicing since I was young risking everything on that audition and just because she knows the 'casting director'. I can't believe she wouldn't let me into that show.)) The show that everybody watches, not at home on their televisors but in life. The show, the drama, the production that life has become. No longer is fun what I care about because fun doesn't make me fit in. Fun doesn't make me skinny or smart or popular...because that's what everyone else wants. we act to fit in. we live to act. because we want trust. We want the secure knowledge that everyone you know will be here tomorrow, just as they are today, and that you and you and you and I can go play with him and her and him...but not her, she isn't good enough for the part. We want acceptance. We want it need it crave it. Like a drug, we take it when we can get it, spending the money our parents give us, thinking we are going to the movies hahaha, we are really spending it, investing it in friendships. Some last for the rest of our lives, some for less time than it takes to say "you little bitch" to the back of a head that is storming out of the theater. we don't even know why we do it, it isn't doesn't even make sense. we don't trust it because we can't see it, but it is in us. The instinct, our bodies know that the people that surround us are going to surround us for the rest of our lives. They are always going to be the same age, or three years younger, or five years older. Not even orbiting the planet will make you younger because you will never get there. Being an astronaut is the dream of a child. A dream that you can clearly remember, the pure, angelic, naked hope that one day you will make it and be great. and it is that dream, that hope, which now is covered under the makeup from the play, that keeps those of us from slitting our wrists and doing the drugs that only bury that hope further in the dirt. But it is still there. the gleam of something more than this act. because this act isn't our life, it is everybody else guessing what everybody else wants them to be. groupthink I think the white coats call it. and we are almost out. the act is almost over, and we have made it through because of that hope. we live to hope, and the others hope to live because what they did to themselves was too much.
finally, we are out. Still stuck in high school, but we now live to be free. we have made it, with more than our share of scars and stories. and we help who we can, because we know what it was like. But now things are different. now we look back on all that we have accomplished, and lost. we look back to our lives of acceptance and groupthink. We look back to the days of dreams and learning, and we look back to the days of life. the days that we lived to live. nothing to complicate it. nobody telling you their opinion while you furiously scribble notes into the notebook you bought with the money from your job at the movies. because we see it now, we see the life we have. We think we understand, but nobody knows everything. and we read stories about big bears of men who have found bliss. True bliss in the form of play, not even with humans but with bears and with dogs and with monkeys. People who live to live. who live to play, who work so that they can live. and we also see the other person who has built the empire of technology. who stands at the top watching over their floor of directors that looks down to their floors and so on. and they all work. to get money, to invest it in their things, hopefully their kids, and try to make a living. the live to work. and we look at those roads, and all the others in between living to work and working to live, because that is what we have been shown. and it is our decision now, to choose our path, or better yet make a new one. and forge ahead into the world...to be remembered.
and then, our train of thought comes to a screeching halt. because there was a noise. a voice actually, but one you haven't heard before. ...his first word, her first favorite word. The years have just flown by. and they are playing outside, having fun. they are five, full of radiant hope, just as you were. and they both love their first word and say it all the time.
why
"Why?" they ask you. why do we want to be remembered? because we want people to know that we have made a difference in this world. why? because we want to know that someone cared about what we did. why? because it is like when you made that macaroni picture and your mom put it on the fridge, because we want trust. We want the secure knowledge that everyone you know will be here tomorrow, just as they are today, and that him and him and her and her can work to make the world a better place for you and you and her. why? because our life wasn't perfect, and we don't want you to have to go through what we did. why? because we care about you, we want you to know that we will be here tomorrow just as we are today, and that our lives are for you. We live for you. and you live for the future. we live in you and you live because of us. why? because, as the writers at disney managed to phrase very well, it is the circle of life. and I honestly believe that in the end, we live for each other, for one reason or another. Whether it is instinct to pass our genes on, or because we just like having sex, or because we are all one being trying to survive in the world, or because a higher power said it would be a good idea. we live to give to the future, and hope it did some good.
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